crazy squirrelz

06:01 pm: doomsday...
is Sept. 16. That is when I leave on a jet plane for France land. Remember this day for then the mourning for my loss shall begin :P.

06:03 pm: recent activities..
Last weekend was pretty busy :)
Friday I went to Jenn's housewarming party, because she just moved to San Jose!! We watched musicals and drank and ate and were merry :). BTW Trader Joe's has a smiley face:) bottle of wine for $7. I had to get it. Very dry wine, not my favorite, but awesome bottle.

Saturday morning I went to go volunteer at the Cupertino Relay for Life. I was on the Committee last year, but just didn't have time to do it this year. I wanted to go help the day of the event anyway. So I ran around in the hot sun setting things up and chatting with people I had not seen in awhile. I made a luminara bag for my Grandpa (in honor or in memory of someone with cancer) to put out on the track.

Then I went home to get cleaned up and go to Emily Yau's birthday party. I am sad I have not hung out with her more since she is very cool and active and lives so close. She's one of those people that just exudes poise and calmness and always says the right thing. Oh, to be more like that :P.

So I stayed at her party for a bit then went to Mary Rose's house for the No Doubt concert at Shoreline!!! Much fun, Gwen Stefani is a really good performer (those abs!) and despite it being a little cold, the whole night was great. Getting home took forever, of course.

Sunday we had our book club meeting at the Picchetti winery in Cupertino. I never even knew that was there, it was such a beautiful, cute place!! We had a nice picnic on top of a hill and then did some wine tasting. Can't say I really liked much of it but the place was charming :).

Went over to Meg's house afterward to play bocce ball (very boring but good for conversation) because it was just too darn beautiful to be inside.

Very nice, fun, diverse-among-friends weekend :).


One thing I must complain about:
I HAVE THE WEIRDEST DREAMS PEOPLE. I'VE BEEN EXHAUSTED THIS ENTIRE WEEK BECAUSE MY DREAMS WON'T GIVE ME A REST AND I WAKE UP MORE TIRED THAN WHEN I WENT TO SLEEP AND OFTEN WITH MY HEART RACING. I NEED ONE DREAMLESS NIGHT OF SLEEP TO GET SOME ACTUAL REST.


Good things planned for the week ahead; dim sum tomorrow on Castro (you're invited), BBQ, bowling Monday night (you're invited), service project, Sweet Tomatoes and another volunteer thingy! I signed up to volunteer with the Senior Games at Stanford. They're not quite as competitive as the Senior Olympics but it's run by the same people. I'm signed up for shifts as softball check-in, track assistant and media assistant. It's a HUGE event and should be fun so I'm looking forward to it!

<3 Life <3

10:25 am: I finally got my contract!!!!
I'm going to Bayonne baby!!!

I'll be teaching for 7 months at Lycee Rene Cassin and College Marracq.

I'M SOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!

Now there's a bunch of stuff do to now that I got my "arrete de nomination". None of the other TAs have been placed in Bayonne yet, but some are close by. Bayonne looks like a great place, not too big, not too small. It's just above Spain on the Atlantic Coast. Awesomeness.


If anyone cares:

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bayonne

francetales.com/2008/05/31/bayonne-france/


OOOO YEEEAAAAHHHHH

09:47 am: WONDERFULLY AWESOME FUN WEEKEND.....
It started out with zero plans and turned into the nicest weekend I've had in awhile (although I have lots of nice weekends I must say).

Friday was my Grandpa's birthday (91 and still going strong!) so my brother, dad and I drove up to Elk Grove to cook him a birthday dinner and celebrate. Except for my mom being immature and causing unnecessary problems and it being 10000 degree it was a nice day. We definitely cheered Grandpa up for his birthday :).

Saturday I went over to Emilie's house for a pool party with Rob, Holly, Emilie's bf Matt and her neighbors. In the evening we rode our bikes along the Stevens Creek Trail to Shoreline for fireworks. Since Matt works at Google, we got to explore the campus for a bit and spread our blankets on the lawn to watch fireworks from the Googleplex :). Very cool, though imho it was a wimpy five-minute fireworks show (the economy??).

Google is an interesting place. There's a million crazy things there like 'sleep pods' for when you want to nap at work and heated toilet seats :P.

Sunday Rob and Holly wanted to go to the Boardwalk and Emilie and Matt came too so we had a nice group of awesome people. First we went to Capitola to lay out on the beach. It was very beautiful but also very windy so after an hour or so we packed up and got some pizza for lunch. Then we drive over to the Boardwalk and went on a couple rides(Great Dipper!), got some DELICIOUS ice cream at Maryane's and headed home :).

The PERFECT summer afternoon.

09:24 am: fun weekend....
Full of summer time goodness.

Friday night Emilie, Fara, their friend Sonya and I went up to the city to go to this club called Slide. Fara is a big MJ fan and they were having a midnight tribute to him. We stood outside in the cold for a full hour to get in. But once we did get in it was very cool. It was a very chic place, full of glamorous yuppies breaking it down to Thriller and Beat It. Chic but sweltering so after awhile we beat it (harhar!) down the street to a diner for some early morning munching.

Saturday Holly and Sonia and Sean came to Cuesta with me for a picnic. Nothing beats a picnic on a hot day. Except a pool party, which Emilie kindly provided us with Sunday :).

After picnicing and going home to get cleaned up we headed to downtown Paly to meet Marco, Susie, Carrie etc etc people at Rose & Crown. While they headed off to B412 to dance their socks off, we got some dinner then I walked to Blue Chalk to meet up with Emilie, Jasmine and a bunch of her friends. FUN!!! Mucho better than the last few times I was there. I will ALWAYS have flipflops in my car as backup from now on ><.

Sunday Emilie had a pool party, the only thing that beats the aforementioned picnic on a hot hot day. Watermelon yumminesss mmmmmm....

Countdown 3 weeks to go.....

10:02 am: perhaps I'm just in a pissy mood.....
but that was rude.

I'm at work...on the CONFERENCE TABLE. The new sales guy who took over my desk is settling in this morning. I unfortunately have to work 5 feet from him for the next month. Anyway, so there's this file drawer in my desk that keeps opening on its own. Just slides open when nothing's happening. OF COURSE this is because the room is on a slight incline. I am not an idiot. But I JOKINGLY told the sales guy that there must be a ghostly presence in the room and its trying to get at something in those files in order to be at peace. He responds NON-JOKINGLY, "Well Theresa did someone not take their meds this morning?" I said that I was obviously kidding and I just have an active imagination, and it's good because it makes the world a more interesting place. He says VERY CONDESCENDINGLY, "That's just your own world Theresa."

Screw you sales guy. He does not know me AT ALL and that is not something you say to a complete stranger. I hope he does bash his knee on the drawer next time it opens.

05:10 am: nooooo....
My boss told me my last day would be June 30th. That would mean I'd be two months without a job, a little too long for my taste but I am so over my job I said 'fine'. Then we had a conference call with the staff today about this symposium they're organizing and he charged into my office afterward, asking me to stay longer. So I got roped into working until July 17. NOOOOOOOOO I'M SO OVER IT. It's better for me anyway I guess, but I have so much else I want to do and I'm so over my job. Owell, only one more month. I can start the countdown.

Mary Rose, Sonia, Holly and I went to SF yesterday for this Shecky's Girls Night Out event. Just a big shopping event basically but it was good times :). And we got AWESOME goodie bags!!

The French program coordinator sent out the contact info for all the Bordeaux TAs. So we've been emailing each other to introduce ourselves. Everyone is so excited, it's awesome! I need to buy my flight ASAP.

I want to have a BBQ sometime soon. Next weekend.

11:17 am: the end...
It just hit me that at the end of today i will have no more classes. ever. And next week I will go home and they're wont be any coming back soon like it has been for the past four years. For four years everyplace has been temporary, I'd soon be going back to somewhere else where I have a completely different life waiting for me.
And soon, it will just be the one. The original. And it won't have changed much, but I have. I've changed alot and I'm wondering how I will fit back into my role.
That now just seems so weird to me that I won't be beack here anymore. People that I'm used to seeing everyday will soon become just memories. I'm pretty bad with keeping in touch so that's probably the way it will be.
I just don't know anymore. I do believe I should go home and get my feet under me, and and all that jazz, but how hard will it be to leave? it's just so hard to get out the door y'know?
anyway, I need to focus on getting work done. Final this afternoon and last day of work.

10:18 pm: next year...
so i am definitely going to need to find:
a) a new place to live next year
OR
b) 3nice roomies to live with. i really would like to stay in the same apartment, its SO convienient.
Serena wants to know ASAP if imma be living here so if you know of anyone looking for somewhere to live next year let me know!!!

06:49 pm: teh obligatory New Year's post.....
yeah i dunno why im bothering to post when there are NO PICTURES but there will be when i get to school so owell.
first off, i love evreyone here at home and i didn't see ANYONE nearly enough and will suffer withdrawal syptoms starting riiiight now.ouch=P.
I'm leaving tomorrow so I should soooo be packing right now instead but no one's home and i'm taking comfort in the virtual world=P.
Post-Christmas shopping w/ H&S and Natalie hen Natalie randomly called Danny Babcock OUT OF NOWHERE but he couldn't hang out=( yay randomness! i miss yous all awready.
Hung out w/ Danielle and some of her peeps all yesterday. it was fun even tho she lives waaaay far away now=(. Went to Denny's and Boba and random driving around SJ...GREAT picture coming.yay!

Then had a New Year's party at Jenn's. firecrackers aHAHHAHAA! and dancing! w00t! and yeah.
then had my last day of work at 10:00am! just got back in fact. such nice ppl i will really miss them.=*)
MUST get to the packing now or it'll never get done.........
goals for the New Year:
1)GET MORE INVOLVED a)do intramural track for fun/fitness b)join newspaper or likewise
2)relax more, explore my surroundings
3)get way better grades, apply to some sort of grad school
4)have a blast in Ireland, backpack around Europe
5)get a REAL job
6)realize self-worth(corny but necessary)
8)stay in touch with everyone i actually care about! i care about so many ppl that i haven't seen in too long*sigh*

11:23 pm: humdedumdumdummmm
I went back for my oaycheck at work. awww! they made me promise to come back and visit. I'll be working there over Christmas anyway. One of the managers who I didn't think liked me that much gave me a hug and told me to study hard.=P

Christina's stuff is all packed and in the car. My little sissy! I don't know how she'll manage w/o me! Hopefully just fine but immma MISS her like craziness! So I'll be in SLO for a couple days....

Hung with H&S and MR yeshterday! <3 we were ballerinas and ate junk food and played Balderdash which I royally suck at=P. and watched funny videos of us being...us*giggles*dorks
twas funz0rs<---haha funny word

Books are beautiful. They are envelopes I can wrap myself in and mail myself to another life. The cover opens and a whole new set of issues and opportunities are brought into consideration. I lead double lives, even triple, when I'm in the middle of a good book.

cheese is the best.

11:42 am: so it's been awhile....
pretty much the same as ever, been hanging out with da twinsies and MRsie more(finally!) we miss you tho natalie.=( pool play and movies and eating, etc etc
Seen alot of movies lately.
Mostly been....you guessed it....WoRkInG
I live at work so yeah.......
owell one more week. i'll miss everyone there tho. i highly doubt my Irvine compatriots will be as cool.
My brother is very cute.....and so is my dog
So i'm getting a little excited to head back to school. Not sure why.
I'm excited for my sister too, going to Cal Poly and i know she's gonna have a blast, i made sure she is all prepared, and Cal Poly is a really neat school. i plan on visiting alot.=)
Oh yeah and I GOT MY NEW PHONE!!!!!!!!!W000T! except i have no one's # in it.
i love baking.
i'm reading Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy after an inifinty of listening to everyone quote it.....
it's interesting.
Yeah my summer has been extremely dull which i why i have't bothered updating.

11:00 pm: in a nutshell.....

06:08 pm: sorry for the exat same post repeats, pics are just going in another one altogether....
OK so nothing exciting happened, but I enjoyed every minute. Break was sooo relaxing and I am filled with warm fuzzies.<3

Tuesday I hung out with H&S and MR(noooo Nat WHY did you go back?we missed you!). We had lunch at Hobeeeeeees and then hung out at MR's house ALL DAY LONG. I <3 you girls.
Unfortunately H&S had to go back to Davis. MR had to go back to Santa Clara. And I went home to my family. Normally this would make me cringe, but in small doses nothing makes me happier=P. Did anything else cool happen? I'm such a homebody. Who loves to travel. Anyway. It's stupid how my spring break is after EVERYONE else is already back at school. So many ppl I won't see until summer but that's oky-day.

Friday I took the bus down to see The Jenn @ UCSC=UC Summer Camp. No seriously. So pretty, so laidback, I did not see one Luis Vuitton bag the whole time! whew! I have also never seen so many dread-heads in one place=P. But it was freaking COOL. Jenn and her friend Robby picked me up and we wandered around the downtown until John Somebody(he remembered me from hurdles?) came on the next bus. The town was.....unique. That guy walking around in a pink frilly dress and parasol? the silver men's gogo boots? HAHA. Then we went to the campus. Which looked like a summer camp and there was a lot of ppl wearing sandals and with long hair. And everyone was FRIENDLY. We walked around in the woodsphotobucket is being stupid right now so I'll post more pics later.
I wanna transfer to SC=P. So THAT'S where "everyone else" went. You know, everyone besides the preppy Asian, SoCalian....person. Everyone else, the extremely diverse mishmash of humnanity ended up at Santa Cruz. What a trip. heheheh After dinner we had to leave and I talked to Sai(going home for dentist appointment) and John the whole way on the bus home.

Saturday I spent from 7am-5pm working at the SF track invitational. YES GLADLY OF MY OWN FREE WILL. I had a blast, I had tons of fun even tho I was working and so I missed some races=(. Christina ran @ 8am-3000 meters. I am so proud of her. She's my heroine in so many ways, she's such a fighter. *stops sentimental mushyness* no wait there's more...Got to hang out with THE BEST DAMN RELAY TEAM IN THE WORLD. Minus Britt, she quit! *sigh* Anyway I swear I still know 1/4 of the team, I talked to sooooo many ppl and sooo many parents, and laughed sooo much. Carrie I talked to your mom(btw how did Kevin do?) Warm fuzzies when ppl remember you after so long and welcome you back. Couldn't talk to Chisam or Saso which I will definitely catch up with them when I get back. I feel so comfortable and at home around 'em all. This is why I wanted to continue with track. Watching them running their little hearts out....I'm remembering why it was so important to me and what I got out of it. *stops sentimental mushyness for realz*

Yeah so I know that didn't sound very exciting to YOU but I could hardly have asked for a nicer more pleasant break.

11:56 pm: Because I need CONTROL....
I made my lj friends-only. So if you wanna read more about me... suffer in ignorance!!=P Or, you know, friend me or let me know you wanna read all about my fascinating life/insane rantings. It's a trip, hah not. If I think you're cool enough I'll add you...sound good?=P

02:17 pm: bLLEEHHhhh..
I'm sick dudes... Actually our whole family is...except my sister, she got sick before any of us and she likes to cough on ppl, this leads me to believe she infected the rest of us.-_- So the day after Christmas me, mom, dad, and bro are miserable and achy and coughy. Christina had to wait on us all hand and foot. That's what she gets for getting us sick! But she's been doing a good job of it, no complaints from me.  Sorry I couldn't come ice-skating Jenn*grumble*grumble*I always choose extremely inopportune times to get sick.

As long as I'm stuck here til I'm better I'm gonna post those pictures I promised from the twins bday:

the old ones! hehe aren't they so grownup??

awww so cute! but why am I looking at the wall?

even cuter!!MR you look scared....it's Sonia isn't it? freaky girl=P

Natalie scaring Pippin hehehe

10:08 pm: MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
Christmas is the bestest!! I hope everyone has a great day!

We're having lamb for dinner tonight mmmm....

Well, I've finally been out to see pplz...
Tuesday I walked over to H&Ss to hang out. We walked to Rite Aid and to Taco Bell for foodstuffs. Then we went back to their house and Holly and I played around with Sonia's computer drawing pad. We made a pretty picture!(Holly posted it, check her lj=P).

Wednesday I tried to finish my Christmas shopping. Some sales are good but it is still so easy to spend alot on...not alot.>< And Vallco is completely useless.

Wednesday night I went to Mercado to see Meet the Fockers with Lizz Burke and co. Steffin called while I was looking for her. We decided on presents...I give him a toothbrush, he gives me an iPod. Sounds good huh? So then I found Lizz and a bunch of her friends. Chris, the guy she's dating, is very nice, he and his friend Tim talked with me about track, they know Kirsten, a pole vaulter at UCI. Tis a small world after all. The movie was ok, but kinda heavy on sex jokes. Tho I saw so many kids under 12 in there in makes me wonder what kind of a world it is that parents will let their little kids see that.
Anyway after the movie we all went outside to chill. Patrick Langtry was there with his gf, now there's someone I haven't thought about since graduation..wow there's alot of them....
So me, Lizz, and Dan sat outside Starbucks and talked for a couple hours. I think Dan has worse drug problems, I feel bad for him.....>< But it was fun catching up with them. I haven't seen either one since graduation. It was hellza cold and getting late so we went home.

Thursday was Holly & Sonia's 20th birthday! Do either of them look that old? nah. I went over to their house, MR was already there, then came Natalie, Elisa, and Lauren. We had some yummy custard birthday cake, then left to go get some REAL food on Castro. Of course the place was closed. So we headed over to In-N-Out. Then Lauren had to leave. We drove to Shoreline to see The Incredibles. GOOD MOVIE. That's all there is to say. Back to MR's house where Natalie made us deeelicious pancakes with homemade syrup. Played around with cameras and petted kitties. Fun times hanging out as always.=)

Our tree looks really crappy but I guess it's what goes UNDER it that counts right? hehe Tomorrow we're going to my Grandpa's house in Sacramento. More presents! An promise of a real dinner. And spending time with family we only see about twice a year...

I'll post pictures next time.=) HAPPY CHRISMIKANNAKWANAZZA!!

12:41 pm: grades came thru....
yay! I passed Gaelic! She must have felt sorry for me to pass me, I sucked sooo bad=P. I got a 3.4 which I believe is the highest GPA I've EVER gotten. w000t. So I'm happy. yay! And my leg is getting better yay! And Steffin called and made me laugh yay! And we rented Dodgeball yay! And it's ALMOST CHRISTMAS YAY!

Enough of that.

My car's not working well, leaking like a sieve=(. Pray for it.

I have to call Lizz Burke, I promised I would when I got home, but I'm a bum and have just been sleeping in everyday and mooching around, too lazy to call anyone. blah. I should call Britt too, I really wanna see her before I go back.

Thursday Liz and I and went to go see Bridget Jone's Diary 2. It was decent, but I dunno, not laugh-your-socks-off funny. Thank you for the CD, tis pretty Christmas music!

We're trying to write up our family holiday letter. Y'know the one you send out to anyone and everyone's address you have to tell them what you've been up to. Like they care how you're doing. We're trying to make ours sound as subtly boastful as the ones we've been recieving. Like my aunt's letter "Eddie(my cousin) is doing well with a rigorous set of classes this semester....he's been enjoying his YOGA CLASS..." yoga? rigorous? since when? haha

Well h'okay, I believe many of you are getting back from school around now? hmmm? ok well call me! or IM me! or send me a letter telling me about how your year went! or not...

09:49 pm: home home home home....
I'm baaaack mwahahaha

Yes I am at home and sleeping on the couch. Bothering the siblings and fighting with the mom=P. Glad to be home really, tho I wonder how the heck I ever lived here without going crazy(or did I?) Anyway, I have all this stuff that I have to get done over break, preferably in the next week so that I'll be free for Christmas. w00t! I have missed all you guys, we have to hang out! I should put up lights tomorrow to make this place Christmasy. I bet I'll be hanging around SF alot too, don't be surprised if you see me there.

I can't run til January which makes me sad, I'm going to be very antsy and hyper. blah. Must restrain random eating habits><.

Now I miss my school friends. Espcially Steffin. But y'know you see and talk to the same ppl day after day and then when they're not there anymore...it's different. whatever. Only 3 weeks here and then I'll be down there for 6 months sooo yeah I think I'll just enjoy being here while I can. I can't WAIT for our season to start, oooo I'M SO EXCITED!

Has anyone else had pumpkin cheesecake and think it's just divine???

10:00 pm: strange...

I feel soooo much better now. I needed a good cry + major venting + chocolate milk + actual problem solving + a little laughter.....

Well I was feeling really crappy last night for no particular reason. Just a lot of random little thingies felt wrong. And now they feel right. I'd say it's pms but it's not. whatever.

Today I had the mother of all talks with Ben, my coach. It was painful but I'm relieved in a way. He and I have major communication issues as I've told anyone who will listen. He is aggressive, loud, outgoing, tough. I am passive, quiet, stubborn, distrustful, thin-skinned. He was nasty to me again and I got really upset(crying again, I'm a wuss). Ppl surprise me tho. Lauren, Jessie, and this stranger-but-now-stranger-no-more Stephanie all listened to me and comforted me and adviced me. I got a hug and that made me start crying all over again.  I know I'm not the only one he picks on, this is not all about me, but I get really pissed off when he treats me like that, that's why I cry. I know that NO ONE deserves s**t like that. But Stephanie went and talked to Ben and he came looking for me later. We talked and talked and talked and....well now we both understand each other a hell of alot better. I know I didn't seem like I was worth the effort to keep on the team last year. I sucked, there's no nice way to put it. I was uncoachable and as Ben so kindly pointed out, many ppl wondered why he kept me.  He did tho and I 'm grateful for that. He says he believed in me(hmm?) and he must have seen something there, but I still think he was too harsh.  He says I gotta trust him more.  Gotta give it time tho, I have rarely had authority figures I could trust so this is a problem for me.  And my stubborness what can I say? It's an (futile)attempt to protect my extremely easily battered ego.  And it's been crushed like a grape.  He also insists that he doesn't hate me or he would have kicked me off a looong time ago.  Which, now that I think about it, might be true.  But I still don't trust him.  Dammit. 

So yeah, I had to drink chocolate milk after all this to feel better.  I sorta wish Jackie was around so I could talk to her.  Steffin called =) which made me feel good even tho it was really to berate me for forgetting today was his birthday=P.  He makes me laugh <3.  Then Joy and her friend Serena came over to watch the OC.  ooo major twist...Ryan's girl's mom is Caleb's mistress's daughter!oooooo! hahaha. 

I'm coming home tomorrow night. Gonna see if Kym can give me a ride to the airport.  That reminds me I should get off this and go pack huh? I'm bringing a crapload of stuff home for the 3 weeks.  I'm so tired tho, very drained. *yawn*PEACE LUV AND SOUL PUNKS I'M OUT!